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  Gifting Flowers, 14th January 2026 Throughout my youth up until this year, 24 years in total, my views towards gifting flowers were as follows: A pointless act of disrespect towards nature, by specifically breeding a specific cultivar, that will be harvested in the millions a day, to be cut, to be sold through logsitcs up until, to be arranged in the bouquet, just for someone to put inside their house, or have no where to put them, uintil they wither and rot. A meaningless act, the flowers die anyway. Not because precisely so, but I had believed there were many more ways to convey love than to waste the lives of flowers. I wonder is this Fi forward thought?  ( continuation, 15th April 2026 I would conclude such valuation and perception is mainly Fi focused. A negelct and opposition to the norm, a desire for truth and individual value in priority.  But as well, current me would go both ways.) Anyways, fast forward a few months ago. The transition of perspective took me b...

Day 4 of unemployment, again.  I lost my patience, thanks to my overthinking mind, to stop it from imploding, I quit everything again.  I left Penang, towards Petaling Jaya, in hopes of a better mind. One of the worst working experiences I had in my first 2 months, there were multiple conflicts, and constant confusion, and disappointment, both sides, my employer, and me. So i had to be let go, on a 24 hour notice, what a bum.  I got re-hired on the 5th, this time in floristry and events. Throughout were conflicts and hope, and the constant need to catch a breath. A whole day of rest can't replenish my energy levels but I had to keep up with my employer. I'd like to say i deserved to be fired, despite how gritted my teeth were. It was a well-planned road, but I had to let circumstances affect me, and expect others to understand. I had many red flags, like repetitive mistakes, and crashing the car, and blurryness in work. They had red flags too, the entire bunch in the comp...

And so I have bought a few books, one of them being White Nights. I left Akutagawa halfway and sprung to Dostoevsky, wondering how he writes.  White Nights didn't seem to be the first book that would be inroduced to people getting into Dostoevsky. Reading the first story was a pain in the head and a mirror to my recent past, though I was still satisfied with the story in whole. The narrator, the main character? A dreamer his whole life, touch deprived and in need of love. Has so much love for the world, with vivid imagination and childlike heart, he tells his story and place in Petersburg. Everyday like a hop and a skip, he lives his life with wonder. Then Nastenka appeared, and he felt like she was the one at first glance. I'm sure its absurd but it happens to not the best of us, just some childlike people, as was me, in 2023. I'd not delve further into the story, but my parallel and my own version of this 200 year old prime situationship story. 2023, last quarter, forgot ...

 this band caught me in one of the years when i was 17-19. in a math rock playlist i started listening to everyday. i didnt know how but then i was obsessed with the sounds two moons, and good bye impacted me. then i started listening to the whole discography and now 2025, in an unexpeected twist, going to their concert back in September.  they sound like what life is. they sound melancholic, uplifting yet melancholic, energizing yet soft  yet raw. they give me a trance-like flow state which is so comfortable.  i adore how two moons give me a sense of comfort, warmth, simple joys and its gentleness. when i saw goodbye feat toki asako for the first time i was just stunned by how cathartic humans can be. historically catharsis comes with chaos in an immeadiate snese, like wars, and destruction. int his current era post-covid, humans bottle up emotions and conflicts more and more. maybe it was just me, but. goodbye bestows a sense of release that reimburses you with all...

The Present (A Post-Pandemic Renaissance) The market has exploded since the pandemic restrictions lifted. We're not just back; we're bigger and more demanding than before. 1. The "Instagrammable" Economy:  This is the single biggest driver. Clients don't just want beautiful flowers; they want a "Wow Factor" that looks incredible on social media. Every arch, every centerpiece, every walkway is designed with photography in mind. This has pushed florists towards more dramatic, bold, and unique installations. 2. Rise of the "At Home" Celebrant:  While grand ballroom weddings are still huge, there's a massive trend towards curated, intimate events at home, in villas, or in unconventional spaces (like industrial-chic warehouses or lush nurseries). This requires a different approach—more personal, textured, and integrated with the environment. 3. Sophistication & Hybrid Styles:   Malaysian clients are now world-travelled and exposed to global ...